.

I long waking up next to you

The sun up high and the sky blue

I long for us to take a shower

And change into our clothes together

Bacons and egg for breakfast

Going to work really fast

We meet up for lunch

My sweet honey bunch

We go back to work

For our futures worth

We meet up again

To ride the train

And get home in a hurry

Cause we cant wait to make and eat our curry

After we wash the dishes

And make our wishes

As we make our way to the bed

Feeling dead

We cuddle in together

And sink into deep slumber

As we take part in our dreams

We get rid of our fears

And wait til we wake up once more

Into our beautiful forevermore


P.S.

I know I suck at being a poet

So to the haters you can all suck it

-n.b.

Here I go again.

So today was actually the first time i celebrated the 14th as valentine's day and not as single awareness day. That day didn't go as i expected. I expected it to be just like any other day but my baby made it a point to make it special. He gave me a paper bouquet of flowers cause he knows I'm allergic to the real ones. Hahaha. Then he let me go on a little adventure. And i got myself a pot of gold! Hahaha. Then we went out :) it was pretty much an awesome day for me, I don't need a lot to make me happy. The simplest of things make me happy tooooo :3 hihi :3

This post was like for over thinking but then i thought why not put the good first? Right? So firstly i feel sad that my best friend isn't a strong believer of valentines :( he dint even bother to try and ask his gf out on a date :/ but hey we cant dictate everyone. It seems amongst all my friends who are girls, I'm the only one who is truly happy here. Mmmmm. But i hope my other friend's date went well :)

That's all i wanted to say. Iloveyouguysssss. Goodnight! Peuce! :*

The fam bam ate in beverly view tonight and Oh and my mom gave me chocolate for valentines :)) teehee :3

1am thoughts.

I just sent my baby a goodnight message thinking I'm going to bed but i guess my thoughts beg to differ. Here i am again thinking of things that might happen in the future. I used to be so negative about my current relationship but i guess i have grown to trust him and trust myself that i wont allow the things that happened in the past happen again. I really do love my baby and i guess maybe because i have fully allowed myself to feel such deep feelings that i have scared myself into thinking of what might happen to me if he ever leaves me :/ i know its shameful for me to think that he might leave me even though i know that it is such a slim chance since both of us have never broken up with anyone. Those thoughts keep on haunting me every night, every time i text him goodnight even though I'm going to see him in a few hours. It just scares me. I guess its normal for people in love to be scared of what the future may bring. I have not only learned how to fall in love i also learned how to stay in love with the person i have fallen in love with. :)

"We should love, not fall in love, because everything that falls gets broken"
-Taylor Swift

Im scared.

The sudden realizations that you get in the wee times in the morning. So im in a relationship and its almost heading to the 6 months mark that ive tried to have the long relationship and it scares me. What if it happens again? The pain that i have felt before was unexplainable and i know that this time if this ends it will hurt so much more because in this relationship i have attached myself so much. I am giving out so much love and its been a long time since i have really felt this way. I am happy and i am scared. We all know how we have this tendency to have this one person as your source of everything and we all know that it is very much possible that if they leave it will be like falling into a bottomless pit. It will be dark. And it will be very painful. I dont wanna think so negatively about this but i have been here before :( im not faking it im really acared :(( i dont wanna lose him :/ he's the first guy that i am afraid of losing :(( he means so much to me. And he was able to break down my walls and pop my bubble. Even if it was so hard to understand me he was there and he never gave up on me :( i fear that if i lose him i might not find another person like him :/ it scares me to death that he could so easily just leave me because what's holding him back? Me? I am but a wierd person who tries. I cannot even give him my all because of my restrictions :/ i am scared. And that is the truth. :((

Party at Adrian's house.

We here havin fuuuuuun :)) eating and watching moobissssss :> errbody is here :3 short post is short :))

Lookie its ver, benj and k :>

Happy birthday to you love :3

Sooooo, here's the thing. I love the way you just figure me out and tell me that you're psychic. I love the silly faces that you make. I love that we can easily just call each other bi and bab in public. I love your smile. I even love the way you laugh even though its funny how you just immediately turn red. I love the way you just burst into random chika. I love it that you make jokes that i may or may not understand. I love the friendly flirting. (haha. You must know that i try) i love our conversations, may it be normal or weird. I love it how even if we are silent its never awkward. I loooove your smell and how it sometimes lingers on my clothes. I love your hugs and how they make me feel calm. I love it how you are such a geek sometimes. I love it how freely i can just hold your hand. I love it when i can kiss you freely most of the time. I love it when you get mad at me or how you get worried, it shows me how much you really care. I love how you trust me. I love how we're like best friends. I love that i can trust you. I love that i have been so lucky to have met you. And most of all, I LOVE YOU :* to infinity and beyond baby :*

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY LOVE (>'w')> enjoy your day today :) you know how much i wanted to be with you today -.- but ohwell :)

Accidental day :)

Its scary to find someone that makes you happy, you start giving them all your attention because they're the only thing that makes you forget about everything bad that's happening in your life. They're the first person you wanna talk to in the morning and the last one before you sleep because you wanna start and end your day with a smile :) it all sounds great that you have someone but its scary to think about how easily they could just leave and take that happiness away with them too.
-scary anon thought :(

So i woke up today thinking I'm going to a friend's company opening and just let it flow into a normal say but me and my bf got lost cause we rode the wrong jeep and never really knew where we were headed or what jeep to ride D: so me and my boyfy got lost and ended up in sm consolascion. We decided to turn our mishap into an adventure by venturing inside sm since it was both our first tome together at sm :) when we went inside we coincidentally saw the movie schedule and decided to watch Life of Pi :) since the movie was still at 12:30 we decided to go and look around. We discovered that my fave chicken place was in the foodcourt section and decided to eat there later on :) we went to wof and played some games and we also checked out their cyberzone and looked ag random gadgets and accessories. After a while we thought it was about time we ate so we could go on ahead and watch the movie. When we went inside the movie house, it was surprisingly empty ;) but we dint do anything funky :3 hahaha after the movie we just continued on strolling sm and decided to go back to school cause he had to be somewhere else and i had to give him his advanced bday present cause i cant be with him on his day :( but at least we had 2 dates this week :>

Ilovemybabysomuch ❤ and i dont think i see a future without him in it :) which is a good thing i guess :3